School Daze

Tomorrow is Finley's first day of school- public school, and I am in a daze.



For many years, I've been surrounded by many amazing moms that home school, and I really wanted to be one of them. But by the end of last year, I realized a few things: 1. Finley and I don't click in a good teacher/student way. Trying to be fun enough for Finley to want to try to learn what I was trying to teach her was so exhausting that, well, let's just say that I really couldn't handle much of it. 2. Finley needs people other than just me. One day when I dropped Finley off for her enrichment classes, a lady walked up and gave Finley a big hug and told her she was so glad to see one of her favorite kids. Finley lit up. And a light went on for me... I don't have to try to be the sole provider of all of Finley's emotional needs. No one person can give us what we need. That's why God has us in a variety of relationships...


So when we found a property zoned for a school that gets rave reviews from everyone I ran into, I didn't find it hard to make the decision to send her to school here. I felt relief and peace.


I am curious to see what the dynamic will be around here with Finley gone all day...


Next year, Joe will be old enough to go to kindergarten, but I can't say that I'll be ready to sign him up. Joe has such a different personality than Finley, that I don't think home schooling would be quite the same struggle. Joe tends to make things fun for himself. And I don't get the sense that he is hungry for more social interaction than what he gets at home. In fact, thinking of sending him away to school all day puts a queer feeling in my heart. So we'll see.